I don’t feel like I am real, or that I exist in this dimension?

Question by Brenden: I don’t feel like I am real, or that I exist in this dimension?
For the past few months, I’ve never felt completely sober. I’ve never felt completely connected to my body either.

For some back ground info, I’m 17, male, I’m 6 feet tall and weigh around 185. I had started to take college courses for information technologies and have 20 credits, but I chose I want to go a further send. In other words, I’m not the dumbest guy ever.
In my time I’ve done many drugs including alcohol, marijuana, salvia, seventh heaven, cocaine, pcp, and meth. (Responsibility pcp and meth were both accidents I haven’t repeated)

I have a hard time remembering things that happened 5 minutes ago, I have a hard time alternative out peoples voices from surrounding noise, set alight is too much and I like the night better than day. And all of this is because im not completely connected. Like im spaced out, but cant snap back into reality.

To further clarify what I am feeling I’ll give some experiences I’ve had over the past couple years.
I’ve been sitting in my room listening to music, completely sober mind you, and I randomly get this amusing feeling wash over me, and my hand is laying next to me on the bed. I start to feel this wierd sensation on my hand and go it around on my bed a small. It starts to feel like there are small patches of uncommon materiel under my hand. Like rough concrete, soft felt, and bumpy braille. As I look down I realize I’m feeling the difference between colors in the design on my mattress. This continued for in this area 5 minutes before the sensation at a snail’s pace faded away.

Ive also experienced akin hallucinations but with my hearing, where I was walking to my mother having a conversation, but she stopped replying and I realized she was not even home.

More recently I’ve had experiences where something effects me, and my consciousness leaves my body and I am sitting in a room in some other house, watching my body do its own thing, and I have no control. This happened at a concert I attended in this area a month ago, I was leaning against a speaker and the DJ dropped this track with some really intense bass that shook me so hard my teeth clattered. As that happened I may possibly feel my spirit our soul or consciousness leave me, and I started shaking uncontrollably and giggling like the Joker from batman. When this happened I saw this happen to for myself

The shaking and giggling and not having full control of for myself lasted for in this area 5 hours. 100% sober.

I also do alot of private research on uncommon dimensions, the pineal gland, DMT, out of body experiences, string theory, quantum physics, ancient mysticism, etc. etc. I do alot of this private research because the only way I can clarify what I am experiencing with one statement is this.

I don’t feel completely attached to my human body. Sometimes I feel like it isn’t mine, or that I am really existing in a uncommon dimension, but for some reason I’m stuck here, when I should be there. Living does not feel right.

Can you help me figure out what this is? I’ll probably be seeing a psychologist soon but figured this wouldn’t hurt. I don’t want to make it stop, I just want to identify and clarify it. This is who I am. I DON’T want to change it. But I want to know what makes me so uncommon from every human on this planet…

ANY feedback is momentously appreciated and I thank you ahead of time

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